Blue, falling and rising

A.K Bellinger Gallery

June 10 – 23, 2021

As I write this, the sky is falling on my garden. A slim point in time when the sun sets and all turns blue. Watching night’s steady approach from a window, blue falls with a thick density, a heaviness, then disappears. Hours after, a new blue rises in the sky, dark and deep. In between are its neighbours: green and purple.

‘Blue, falling and rising’ is a meditation on this moment, interwoven with two books I was reading at the time, Bluets by Maggie Nelson and A Field Guide to Getting Lost by Rebecca Solnit. Solnit writes, ‘The world is blue at its edges and in its depths. This blue is the light that gets lost.’ As a colour it ‘draws us after it’ (Goethe), and so creates a space between, a space of distance, desire, and longing. My longing for this brief blue increases as it fades.

These paintings follow blue around my garden, and become containers for feelings that are awakened. I express a sense of density by pushing colours up against each other, wanting their edges to press, thinking of shapes in stained glass. The paint takes on a velvet texture, thick yet silky. The final works are informed by multiple studies, in pencil, gouache, and watercolour, a repetitive drawing practice that opens new mysteries and ways of seeing.